Archive | April 2015

This Feeling

Sitting alone in the dark of my room
Feelings of loneliness creeping up inside
Should I leave?  Maybe get some fresh air?
Something inside screams no
Instead I lay down and curl up in a ball
Wanting and wishing to disappear
My roommates knock, I don’t move and hold my breath afraid for them to know I’m here
I need to be alone right now, people will just make things worse.
I should be used to this by now, yet each time it overwhelms me and I’m left choking back tears.
Am I sad, depressed?  I don’t know
I can’t talk about it, without being called bipolar or something worse.
No one understands.
All I know is I just have to endure it for a few more days, all the while dreading work tomorrow.

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