I want to reach out….
But what could I say
We beguile one another with stories of everyday encounters
And in between share sobering moments with one another
What are we doing?
Who are we fooling?!
I kept you a great distance away because I know what would happen
And I know full well how things would play out.
However like those before you, you wore me down
I find my thoughts revolving around you and myself looking forward to midnight talks I haven’t the energy for.
Yet night after night I fight sleep, just to hear your voice and have our famous talks.
As I listen to your voice that’s like a melody to my ears, I am compelled to compliment you and without thought I do.
There’s a chemistry that’s undeniable and a sexual attraction that is maddening to me.
Your intoxicating in a way that words can’t describe.
I want no one other than you to share myself with.
I prayed for clarity on the matter and I suppose I have received my response……
Maybe it’s best we never were and potentially never be….
I’ll chalk this up as a love lost and dreams that never had chance to be.
In the meantime you’ll always be my secret love and yet my greatest heartbreak.